My Life The Earthquake

For those of you who didn't know, I witnessed my first earthquake in Costa Rica. It wasn't damaging and I didn't know what was happening until it was over. It felt like vertigo. I'm using this parallel to describe my life right now. My life is not an 8.2 on the richter scale, but I definitely feel vertigo between the two worlds I'm living in. As I've said before, I don't feel weird being home but...how to clarify...the anxiety level I used to experience here has returned. I didn't sleep but two hours last night. My mind is here, in Chicago, trying to keep everything paid and in balance, in addition to work and seeing family and friends. All of this is stressful enough, just in a normal sort of way but at the same time I have anxiety about returning to Costa Rica. I won't get into the reasons, but I have them. All I wanted when I came home to Chicago was to feel comfortable, at home, no stresses. The same is what I want in Costa Rica. In fact, home is supposed to be a comfort zone. That neutral zone when you can shed everything else and slip into your own. I'm very sensitive to energy and home is one of the most important places to create positive energy. If that is off balance, I am off balance and it's not such a great time.

On another front, I am going to Indiana in about ten minutes. Going to have to finish this now or I will miss the train. I'm already late but that's because I barely slept last night. I have 25 posts to do and my brain is all over the scene. This is one thing I like about CR. I don't have all of these things to think about. The here and the now is much easier there. Can't wait to go camping and drink some whiskey, dance with some hillbilly's and rock out to some GREAT music. Pictures to follow my friends.....sorry no funny, witty stuff today. Not a lot of time but wanted to say hi!

Perspective

Back to the perspective thing. Maybe this won't be a book. I'm reflecting on my writings and they just seem like journal entries to me. But I do have another idea for another book and I'm still going to pursue my initial concept of All In Rhythm hence "Perspective". I don't know where any of it is going....I just want to write. Perhaps I will be dispensing a dose of my own medicine as I write about perspective so take note, I'm probably the most self-aware person you know. When I step outside who I am to logically speak about an issue, I'm aware that it's easier said than done so I'll call myself out on it when necessary.

Dictionary definition:

the state of one's ideas, a mental view or prospect: example: the dismal perspective of terminally ill patients.

Soooo....really the idea of quantum physics ties into perspective and reality. Yes, I just went there. I have always known that the mind is much more powerful than people give it credit for. There was a large chunk of my life where I pushed away all of the things I had believed from birth to say maybe age 25....somewhere along the way I thought it was all poppycock. But since graduating ....maybe like 2003 and experiencing the real world....there's a reason why they say be careful what you wish for. Because your mind, not God or Allah is what creates your world. Finish thoughts later, late for train. peace and love my young padouins.